I had a friend who used to say that to me whenever I
complained about something. That’s the
life you chose. At the time I didn’t really
appreciate his wisdom, but I have come to very much. We all have personal responsibility in the
majority of situations we find ourselves in.
This phrase really helped me to understand what mine is and to realize I
am not a victim of fate, but often my own decisions and inaction.
This year I went home for the holidays. I was around the people who helped formulate
my world views, and I was really able to assess where I am in comparison to where
I was, and where they are. I know
confusing sentence – but I am about to clarify, I promise!
My aunt got mad at my uncle for not putting enough thought
into the gift he gave her. He has
purchased his Christmas gift for her the same way every year. From my perspective he does put thought into
it. He gets her a gift, which is more
than some people can say about their partner.
She has never taken the time to really explain to him what she needs in
a calm manner. She has the life she
chose. She chose to stay with him for
over forty years, she chose to not ask him to get counseling, she chose to not
communicate her needs. This is the life
she chose and continues to choose.
I have a cousin who is married and is cheating. She doesn’t want to divorce her husband
because he is the primary breadwinner and well divorce is scary as hell. But she says she is in love with the other
fella. What is a girl to do? It is not my place to judge or condemn her –
I work for a Voodoo Priestess for goodness sake! I get judged for that daily. Plus she is family. It is my job to be there for her and tell her
I love her, and if she will listen try to call her on her crap when she is
making excuses for her behavior. The bottom line is that she needs to take
responsibility for her life, and try to not hurt all parties (any worse) at
this point. She chose to get married,
she chose to stay when she was not happy, she chose to not work for the past 10
years and be financially dependent upon someone else, and she chose to
cheat. Now she has to rectify all those
decisions and try to start making better ones for herself.
I myself have been through a divorce. A bit over five years ago I drove cross
country with a friend and realized how completely unhappy I was. I realized that I had chosen the wrong life
and I was continuing to choose the wrong
life, assuming it would get better. I thought that marriage was supposed to be
work, and that you have good years and bad years, and I just happened to have a
string of bad years. The trip helped me
realize that I needed to choose a different path. I
did. I got divorced and moved on to be a
better self. My ex found the love of his life and got remarried.
It
was a hard choice, but it is not a choice I have ever regretted!
I have since discovered that marriage is not supposed to be just
ok. It is supposed to be great. At this point in time women and men have
options and resources. We are
empowered, and need to own our lives.
If you are not happy then you need to seriously ask yourself
why and what you can do to become happy.
If the person you are with is
not giving you the right gift then you need to sit down and assess what you
really want and if this is truly about a gift.
If you are not happy in a relationship then see if it is fixable, if not
then end it. If you are cheating then
why are you cheating?
When you feel like a victim (and no violent crime has been
done to you) then tell yourself, “Thats
the life I chose” and see what starts
rattling around in your brain. When you start assessing your choices you can
start making better ones for yourself and you might find things really change for the positive in your life! :)